sad, mad, ...... bad?

I have good days and bad days like all moms out there.  It just happens to be that my bad days can be very sad or very mad days.  Before I was diagnosed and even for a few months after, I felt awful for those days.  I felt like sad or mad = bad.  After all, how can a good mommy cry at the drop of a hat (or milk, or toy, or bowl...)?  Or yell when things went wrong rather than calmly explaining why it is not okay to dump figurines in the fish bowl.  I beat myself up for these outbursts and apologized profusely to my children and my husband.
It wasn't until my therapist repeatedly told me that I was not a bad mom that it sank in.  I may be a sad mom and/or a mad mom, but this does not make me a bad mom.  If a total stranger can see that I love my children and if my children can accept my apologies and tell me that it's okay, everyone gets mad sometimes, how could i continue to blame myself for my emotions?

So whether you are feeling glad, or sad, or mad, please don't feel that makes you bad.